Stop

Stop the torment, stop my pain.
I had enough, what is there to gain?

Time is racing by and I can’t keep up.
Hold the pain, let it all stop!

I just want it all to pause, just for a bit.
I feel like I can’t breathe, I feel like I’m having a fit.

It’s not just once, but I’m feeling this every day.
There is something wrong and I want it to go away.

There is nothing to do about it and that is the hardest part.
Time is passing by and I really have to restart.

Not able to think or express a single thing.
I’m such a mess; all the people I love I sting.

They want to help me, but the helping hands I refuse.
It might sound strange, but it is myself I abuse.

I hurt myself by pushing people away.
If I keep acting like this, they won’t stay.

Because time is going by and I’m sitting besides the trail.
Not able to go on. It’s like I want myself to fail.

But I don’t want to fail, my mind is in shock.
I hurt, even though some might not see. I’m not a rock.

I hurt inside, the scars are not visible to the eye.
God, I wish I could lock myself up for a week and just cry.

But no, I keep it to myself, and it’s waiting to burst out.
But I do not talk about it, nor do I scream or shout.

I just keep it quiet and all bottled up.
Hold the pain, let it al stop!