Little boy

you're a little boy caught in the darkness
thats what my grandfather said when I was 6 now I'm 18
and i am still trapped in inside the darkness
fighting against myself, against the loneliness
i did everything in my life alone
i've learned to feel nothing
but to take everything
i've learned how to steal
how to lie
how to cheat
trained to fight
I am the ultimate fighting machine, but I don't want to hurt people
I just want to feel love
I want someone to hold me and says everything will be oke
i'm dying in the loneliness
nobody sees that I want someone to really know me
that behind all the violence I'm still just a little
frightened boy who is trapped in darkness