Only 14

I'm only 14,
I don?t see what you see,
I don?t see my laughing face,
Or a beautiful side of me,

I just see that I?m ugly,
I just see that I?m fat,
It even makes me cry,
Late at night in my bed,

Trying to fight my insecure ness,
Trying to listen to you all,
But then when someone says I?m ugly,
I still feel so small?

So when I put my finger,
In my throat and past my tongue,
I?m still feeling guilty
Though that feeling won?t last for long.

You really tried to warn me,
You really tried to say,
?I swear that you are beautiful,
so put that thoughts away!?

I knew that I should listen,
Just for my own good,
But then I saw the ugly me,
And got into a depressed mood,

I'm only 14,
I don?t see what you see,
And all those thoughts that I have had,
Are slowly killing me